Proverbs 19:21 says, "Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails." If my plans were to have prevailed I would have a job that would allow me to stay home and take care of my husband, myself and my home without stress. I would be able to attend Women's Bible Fellowship and would be able to continue to spend time with friends and family. This was not God's plan. Jurupa called me back to teach and the charter school I was hoping to work for informed me that they do not have any open positions right now.
My new classroom as a blank slate
It has really been a big struggle for me. Not only am I not staying home but I am also not able to go back to the school that I have been at for 5 1/2 years. I know that God has a plan and I'm not complaining but it has been a difficult time for me. I am so thankful that I know some people at my new school and the principal seems to be great. It is going to be a major change for me as the two schools are completely different.
My main concern was my health during the pregnancy and being able to stay home with the baby when it's born. With the baby due in March I can take off until the beginning of June but will still have to go back to work for a few weeks in June, which kills me. My mom will be watching the baby and I am SO thankful for that but it's still so hard to think about leaving my new baby. I know God has a plan and I am content, I'm just sharing my fears and anxieties.
I learned the hard way this week that I need to change my way of teaching so that I'm not on my feet too much. I always said that I wouldn't let pregnancy stop me from being normal. Ha! I tried to be "normal" the past two days running around to get things ready for my classroom and I came home with an achey body from head to toe. I realized today that I overdid it and I need to take it a little easier. All of this is quite overwhelming but I keep remembering the verse, "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." Praise the Lord that we can rely on Him during uncertain times.