Sunday, February 21, 2010

Be Anxious for Nothing

This was not what I intended my next post to be but the past few days have been like nothing I've ever experienced before and so here I am posting again about being pregnant.

On Thursday I had an appointment with my doctor. Baby and I are both still super healthy but as he measured her he said that he thinks she's going to be pretty big, like 9 pounds big. She measured 40 cm. when she should be measuring 38 cm. I wonder what my face looked like because all I could think was, "Are you kidding me? How am I supposed to deliver a 9 pound baby???" The doctor brought up induction but I reminded him of our birth plan and told him that I didn't want an induction. He was totally supportive but also let me know that our chances of having a cesarean do go up as baby gets bigger.

I came home like a deer in the headlights. Dirk and I talked about our options more and just solidified our choices. We would rather go all natural and end up with a cesarean, than to go in for an induction and know that I'm taking matters into my own hands when this is all God's timing. I'm not saying that this is the right choice for every family but it's a conviction on our hearts and so we are sticking with our decision to not be induced.

Well, after feeling apprehensive about what was ahead I woke up Friday morning at 2AM with cramping and contractions that were very unlike any Braxton Hicks I had ever felt. They weren't super painful but they were very uncomfortable and radiated from my tummy to my back. The contractions lasted for about 2 hours and were about 6-7 minutes apart. I really thought that something was starting so I made sub plans and went back to bed at 4AM. When I woke up at 8 the regularity of the contractions subsided. My mom came over that day and helped me clean up and organize a few last things that needed to be done and Dirk and I ran some errands to get me walking. I was very uncomfortable all day but nothing was really happening. I guess it was false labor.

Needless to say, this weekend has been a weekend of uncertainty. Dirk and I have always been "waiters." That's not to say that we're innately patient people because I assure you we're not, but we do try our best to wait on God's timing and allow Him to work in us. This weekend has been very trying for me in the area of "waiting." I know that God has His timing but I have definitely been anxious and impatient in my heart. I keep reciting in my head Psalm 27:14, "Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord." I know that the Lord has His very perfect timing for our precious baby girl to come and so I just need to cling to Him and enjoy these final days with my amazing hubby, one-on-one. I am returning to work tomorrow and plan to work the rest of the week if my body can handle it. Looking forward to what the Lord has for us this next week. I appreciate every single one of you who have been praying for us and our baby girl. I assure you we will keep you updated as her arrival nears. It's all about waiting now.

3 comments:

  1. Take it easy and just let God work out his plan for you and your family. I pray that your delivery goes well and that your baby is healthy but not *too* big!

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  2. Hey Alicia, it sounds like you guys have a good birth plan and are letting God lead the way, which is such an awesome thing to hear. Im looking forward to baby Dallas! I myself, was a 9 lb'er at birth and my mom had me all natural, so i think we have alot in common. haha. jk.
    Anyhoo...I will be praying that the Lord will bless you and keep you as you wait for your baby girls arrival.

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  3. You may not need to read this study now... you may be in the hospital but... I highly recommend reading this post :http://www.theunnecesarean.com/blog/tag/induction-at-41-weeks to further strengthen your resolve and to discuss with your doctor.

    And I'm not sure how uniform Bradley teaching is but I remember our instructor teaching us that researchers now believe that women labor in chunks of time rather than all at once sometimes and if you are having contractions very near your due date then it should not be considered false labor. Your body is always doing something to prepare the baby. Maybe she's being moved into position for delivery. Whatever it's doing it's getting her ready. It's doing it's job- however frustrating!

    And one personal anecdote... our Pastor's DIL just gave birth under induction because she was 1 week "late" and she spent over 26 hours in labor. They induced her because of the fear about the baby being 9+lbs.... she was 6lbs. 2 oz! It's seriously alarming what following the doctor's advice is putting women through unnecessarily.

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