Thursday, August 5, 2010

SAHM?


As soon as we found out I was pregnant with Makenzie we started to talk about my job. When should I take off? For how long? Would I go back to work? If so when?

Dirk and I had several plans that we had set forth to accomplish but God had His own plan. As each door closed it was a struggle to essentially start from scratch and seek what God really wanted us to do. Although I really wanted to stay home full-time and find a way to make some money from home, God had another plan. I wasn't able to find a work from home job and so we decided that I would substitute teach a few days a week. Unfortunately, I'll still have to leave Makenzie two days a week but she will be with my mom and if she can't be with me then that is the best place for her to be.

It's been quite a struggle to think of leaving Makenzie but then also to think of leaving work. I would be a mess if I knew that I had to leave Makenzie 5 days a week but there is a little part of me that is bummed to be leaving the teaching field. I really did enjoy it and I worked so hard for so many years to get to the place I was at. I know that I can return to the teaching field one day and I do look forward to that day but right now I am so ecstatic to be staying home with Makenzie. God is really teaching Dirk and I a lot. We are learning to trust Him with every aspect of our lives, more than we ever have and for that I am so grateful.

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