The past few weeks have been a real challenge on so many levels. I was really feeling discouraged. In my early days of motherhood, I felt empowered. Although I often second guessed my decisions, I was busy creating a strong bond with my new baby, learning how to be a mom and was still feeling a sense of accomplishment for having an all natural birth. 6 months later that empowerment is gone. I have a very strong bond with my precious baby and I enjoy her to the fullest but still that strong sense of empowerment has diminished. It has been overshadowed by the sense of discouragement over my not so tidy house, by the continuing pain caused by my still unhealed body, by the exhaustion that comes with a teething baby, by the guilt that I'm not sure I'm doing what I should be doing and the constant questioning of am I doing well to balance the roles of wife and mother. The list could go on.
I haven't blogged because I've really just needed time to collect myself and to spend time with the Lord, gleaning from His word and regaining my strength. I am feeling refreshed, although exhausted from teething, I have a new sense of strength and refreshment.
I just saw this video on Mommy Brain and thought I'd share it. Although the editing is cheesy, the overall message really sums up what it means to be a mother and things that I wish I would have thought in the early days. As a helpless perfectionist, the one that stuck with me the most was, "Imperfect is the new perfect." So true. I hope you can gain some encouragement from this video as I did.