Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Bye Bye Breastpump

This post has been a long time coming. At the beginning of December I stopped pumping. It was a difficult decision but in the end I'm thankful that I did it. On one hand I was sad that I no longer would be providing Makenzie with the best possible "food" for her little body but on the other hand I was relieved because it was seriously getting to be impossible to pump and take care of Makenzie. If presented with the situation I was presented with, I would do it all over again but seriously there was a giant burden lifted off of me.

While I was still pumping I would dread when the time came to pump. I would either have to put Makenzie in her pack and play and hear her whine to get out for 15 - 20 minutes or wait until she was asleep which of course cut into my cleaning/getting things done time. Although if I was presented with the same situation again, I would pump again, I feel like a new person now that I'm not pumping.

For starters I'm drinking coffee again which in and of itself makes me happy. I have a lot more time to get things done around the house (although most days you can't tell) and I don't have this nagging burden of, "You should be pumping right now." It was like a big load of guilt was taken off of me. I am SO thankful that I was able to provide breastmilk for Makenzie for her first 9 months of life. I wanted to make it to the 12 month mark but sometimes breastmilk isn't best for the situation at hand. Once I stopped Dirk told me that I seemed more relaxed and less uptight. It was true and stopping was the best thing for our family.

I want to thank each one of you who offered me support and kind words as I went through this trying time. Your support meant more than you know and your words often echoed through my head when I felt discouraged or frustrated with the whole situation. Thank you!!!

So now we are on to new challenges (trying to feed a baby who only wants to feed herself) and will soon be approaching my baby's first birthday. Time has just flown by. Thanks for sticking with me. I look forward to sharing more challenges and accomplishments with you as I continue on this journey through life. :)

5 comments:

  1. It's true! Breastfeeding/ pumping in general takes a lot from you. Adah became so much more affectionate once i stopped breastfeeding her. And then i got pregnant. :/ lol!

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  2. I think given your circumstances, you have done an awesome job sticking with it for this long!

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  3. i was the same way. and soo happy to put that pump away with all my maternity clothes! hopefully, i won't get pregnant right away [that's for you alyssa!] and have to have the husband drag it all back down out of the attic!! oh and your princess is beautiful :)

    xo christina

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  4. Thanks ladies. I just pray that our next baby, which will hopefully not be here for a few years, will be easier to breastfeed.

    Christina,
    Thanks so much. Bridgett is adorable and I love her room...too cute!

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  5. You should be extremely proud of yourself Alicia!! GREAT work!!

    I am in the process of weaning now and just going from 5 pumping sessions a day to 3 has been so fabulous!! I feel so much more rested and free.

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