Monday, April 25, 2011

Baby Number Two?

I love writing titles that I know will first get an "Oh my gosh!" response. No, I'm not preggers and not even close to thinking about it. Now that Makenzie is over a year old the questions are starting, "So when are you guys gonna have another baby?"

I love being a mommy and I love Makenzie with all my heart but I am SO not ready for another baby, like REALLY not ready. I have a lot of friends that are pregnant with baby number two right now so maybe that's what's sparking the questions but I just can't imagine being pregnant again or having another baby. I don't know if it's because it's only been 6 months since I've fully, physically recovered from Makenzie's birth or if it's because I have such a strong desire to breastfeed the next baby but every time I think of it, it leaves an empty pit in my stomach. I guess all of the negative aspects of Makenzie's birth are still fresh enough that the thought of having another baby literally makes me anxious and almost makes me sick. I am also SO enjoying Makenzie and the fun stage that she's at that I'm not ready to be busy with another baby yet.

I know that God will prepare me and put the desire in both mine and Dirk's hearts when the time is right but I'm not thinking that this will be for at least another year, if not more. So, if you were wondering when there will be a baby number 2 for the Dallas family, you can now know that it won't be for quite some time. I just had to get that off my chest...heh.

And just because all posts are more fun with a picture, here's a picture of Kenzie with her first ponytail. After about 10 minutes it's a hot mess but it looks so cute while it lasts.

3 comments:

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  2. I kind of understand how you feel. Ryan's first 6 months were so traumatic and physically/emotionally exhausting for me, that for a while I thought he'd be an only child. But I have been praying about it a lot, and I'm open to having more kids anytime. I think you're right....God will put the desire in your heart. But sometimes he also surprises us when we're not expecting or wanting it, and it's up to us to be open to receive these blessings. Just thought I'd add my opinion.

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  3. I (irronicly) know how you feel. When saw you and Kenzie for the first time, I flashed back to the "just home from the hospital" feeling. I thought it would be much longer than it acctully was before I got Pregnant.

    I'm also feeling the anxiety of the "new" things to come. Even with breast feeding. But mostly how to handle 2 kids at the same time. Especially with night time stuff!

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