For our evening devotions Dirk reads from "Our Daily Bread" which is something that his grandfather did at the dinner table and so Dirk carries on the tradition. After breakfast or lunch I read one of Makenzie's Bible story books.
Our favorite is The Jesus Storybook Bible.
But we also read The Beginners Toddler Bible
My First Story Bible
Really Woolly Bedtime Prayers
and of course the Bible itself.
This week while reading "A Mom After God's Own Heart" for a Mommy Study that I'm co-leading with a friend, I read Deuteronomy 6:5-9:
"You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your strength. And these words which I command you today shall be in your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, when you walk by the way, when you lie down, and when you rise up. You shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes. You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates."
I have read these verses many times and have heard it quoted even more than that, but this time the Lord really spoke to me. One of my biggest struggles in being a stay-at-home-mom is losing sight of the purpose. Coming from a position where I was constantly getting feedback and progressing and finding successes and making a difference in lives of many children, I find myself wondering if I am doing things right. I feel like every week I'm doing the same tasks, only to redo them the following week. Am I doing my job? Am I making a difference for Lord? Am I doing what I'm supposed to be doing? Of course Makenzie is healthy and happy and thriving which is, in a sense a measure of success, but wouldn't she still be healthy, happy and thriving if I weren't at home with her?
These verse in Deuteronomy give me a new sense of purpose, a renewed sense of why I'm staying home and what my goal is. The measure of success is: Am I allowing God to be in me every second of every day? Am I compromising in any way? Am I teaching Makenzie the things of the Lord at every opportunity and holding myself in a way that shows that God's Word is in my heart? Am I living in such a way that there is room only for God?
My goal is to live a life of purpose, where every single thing I do has purpose. That doesn't mean that I have to be filling up my every minute but it does mean that if I'm watching TV there is a purpose for it, such as to relax and unwind or to relax to prepare for the rest of the day. It's about making everything a choice and doing nothing mindlessly. My goal is to DILIGENTLY teach the things of the Lord to Makenzie. To talk of the things of the Lord ALL day long. To remember them and to meditate on them.
I have had a personal conviction the past few months to listen to very limited amounts of non-Christian music, if any at all. I'm not saying that's for everyone but for me, as I listen to Makenzie sing the words to ANY song that we play, god put on my heart that I should be filling her mind with the things of the Lord not ideas without godly purpose. I understand that not every person would agree but this is a choice that I have made because of the burden God has put on my heart. In the end, my ultimate desire is to be a woman of God, a woman of purpose and to raise children of purpose. When I'm feeling discouraged or purposeless I will return to this verse and meditate on it. Evaluating whether or not I am truly living for the Lord.