Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Farewell Paci

Today we said farewell to Makenzie's paci. This was by far the hardest milestone for me. She weaned herself off of the bottle, and I was happy to not have to worry about washing bottles every night. Saying farewell to the breastpump was more sweet than bitter. The crib was kinda sad but I was super excited about the big girl bed. But the paci...

The girl loves her paci! For a year now she's only had her paci in bed and as soon as she gets that paci in her mouth, she makes the same little sound she's made since she was so tiny, and I absolutely LOVE that sound. She gets giddy when she goes to bed to get her paci, she like LOVES it. More than her favorite foods, more than watching Barney, more than anything, SERIOUSLY! So of course that pulls on my heartstrings.

There are so many memories with that paci.

Like the night we brought her home from the hospital. I swore I wouldn't give her the paci until after 6 weeks, because of the whole nipple confusion thing but we brought her home and she was crying non-stop and wasn't breastfeeding right and I had already given her some formula because I was so lost and so in went the paci. I couldn't believe that I was doing it but I did. And I will forever remember standing over her and watching that giant paci go up down so fast. She was two days old and she fell in love with it! 

Oh, the memories. 

Tomorrow I will share with you the goodbye process but today I must do a picture tribute to the paci, so here goes...

And...the very last photo of her with her paci in mouth...SIGH...

Sorry if this seems over the top, but tonight it seriously hit me that this girl is a BIG girl. These baby days are officially over. There is nothing "baby" about her anymore and while I LOVE who she is and am looking forward to watching who she will become, every bit of her baby-ness is gone, forever and that makes me a little sad. In the words of the great Dr. Seuss "Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened." I thank the Lord for every bit of baby I was able to experience and am looking forward to cherishing every bit of toddler I can before this too is over.

1 comment:

  1. Ah! I loved this. So sweet, isn't it? I look forward to hearing how it goes. Tenley only has hers in her bed now and I'm trying to decide the best time to let it go. It's so hard! Kenzie looked so cute with hers :) Watching them grow up is so sad and exciting at the same time.